Seeing My Future in Them

If you could go travel time to when you were younger, what advice would you give yourself?

Hindsight is 20/20, so it is definitely more convincing to listen to your “future” self to be most efficient or happy with life.

When my friend asked me the question, I gave him a mundane response. An answer I anticipate many would say: “Read more, don’t find easier ways, but learn through challenges, and just have more fun”.

I honestly do regret a lot for not reading when I was younger, and what upsets me more is that my parents always told me to read, but I just didn’t want to.

I know this sounds obvious, but it just never came to my realization that the things my parents’ told me to do when I was younger, are exactly the same advices I would give my younger self. My parents were my “future” beings who knew what I would regret later in life. Sadly, I have come to an age when my parents do not really tell me what I need/should do, because they trust that I will make the best decision for myself.

Seriously… my parents used to tell me that it is a lot harder to study when you get old, because materials don’t stick around your memory too long. Back then, I thought they were just saying that because they wanted to scare me so I could study then, but I feel like I am slowly reaching that point.

My point is that your parents will never tell you something that will harm or deter you. You just have to understand that their life experiences are the same as the ones you will experience, except they have experienced them ahead of time to tell you the best way to maneuver about it.


Prayer Request Box

Can you believe we are already quarter way through the year?

How are you doing with your New Years’ resolutions? It’s not too late to start working on them if you think it’s too late. Don’t wait until next year to add onto the list of resolutions.

“Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday”

                                                         – Don Marquis


But more importantly, how are you doing with God?

It’s never too late to seek out for Him.

I wanted to try doing a prayer request box with my readers.

All you have to do is shoot me an e-mail with any prayer request you have!


I know this seems indiscriminate, but in a way, we vicariously act against God daily, so I wanted to use this opportunity to remind myself of His purpose for me.


Thank you!

Gone With The Wind

No, not the movie Gone With The Wind.

** NO spoiler

Hayao Miyazaki, one of the most revered movie directors/writers, has announced his retirement after his last piece, TheWind Rises. I have been a huge fan of his after watching Spirited Away, My Neighbor Totoro, Howl’s Moving Castle, Princess Mononoke, and many more, and I have always wanted to watch his film in a theater. I was studying at the library, and my friend asked me to watch his LAST film, The Wind Rises. I honestly had no idea that he would make his retirement after the film, so I went to watch it at a movie theater. And the movie did not disappoint.

Unlike some of his previous movies, The Wind Rises seemed to have profound morals that could be interpreted in many ways. That’s what I really liked about the movie. In a way, the movie set the same tone as Toy Story 3 did. Toy Story 3 came out when I graduated high school, so it meant a lot to me. The movie helped me realize that I can’t defy age. I remember my friends telling me that they cried when they watched Toy Story 3… because they, too, had to let go of their past to move on to college.

In a similar manner, The Wind Rises helped me understand the meaning of working towards my dream. I hate spoilers and I hate spoiling for others, so I won’t go into details with the movie, but I just want to say that the movie was very inspirational. I will definitely miss his works, and I highly recommend people to watch the film, and check out his other films.


Slump Ends Here

Have you ever heard, “It’s a blessing in disguise”?

Well, sometimes that blessing can be “too good to be true”.

I am certain there are readers who have not read my previous posts, but I will briefly recapitulate my story:

    I was born a Christian, and that has been one of the greatest blessings but an impediment in my development. Although I am bilingual, it is easier for me to stay focused and truly understand when I listen to sermons in English… but because I have been attending services with my parents in a Korean church, I found myself daydreaming during sermons. Naturally, when I came to college, I joined a fellowship to praise God. After a year of getting closer to God, I had to take a year off for personal reason. I questioned God. I felt that He was pushing me away when I have begun to get to know Him better. During a year of absence from school, God told me that He just wanted to spend 1 on 1 time with me. He wanted to teach me that I do not need to depend on others to be closer to Him, but on Him alone.           

   However, when I came back to school, I pushed God away. I did my worst academically and spiritually. I just couldn’t overcome academic challenges, so I kept pushing God down my priorities so that I could focus on school. That obviously did not go well. Fortunately for me, I found Jesus in my life again. This semester, I joined a ministry that could help me set my eyes upon God. I was proud and felt loved by His sons and daughters. My joining the ministry seemed like a sign that God has not let go of me… until people have expressed their concerns for me (I do not want to go too much in detail about the ministry for its privacy). I sought out God’s help and He answered. I was able to speak to different pastors and leaders of fellowships to set my eyes on TRUTH.

    Just when I thought God has placed me in a right place to grow, He placed me in a place where I can seek out the truth. I think He wanted to weed out the worst while I was in the slump so that I do not fall into another slump after climbing back out of the hole. Because of those experiences and struggles God has given me, I am so willing to seek out for Him. I love my Abba and trust that He will continue to guide me.


As always, I do not know how to finish my post, but I would love to share my experiences with readers who are truly interested, so please feel free to ask me via e-mail. Also, what are you giving up for lent?