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For lent, I decided to give up YouTube. At first, I thought it would be very easy, because I hardly watch videos on YouTube… until I had actually given up. There were many temptations planted all over the internet. People would post interesting videos on Facebook or on Sports Website, and when I click the video, it would direct me to YouTube. I would, then, suppress my temptation and tell myself that I would watch it when Lent is over. The hardest thing, however, was when I had to use YouTube for school work, which I had to find alternatives to go about the assignment. And here are 3 things I learned from the experience
1.) To love God, I need integrity. I learned that just by mumbling to myself that I love God, or to go around telling people how much I love Him, I need to first make sure to live like a son of Christ. It is a shame that I tell people how awesome He is, yet I fail to live up to His expectations. Yes, God is a forgiving and loving God and our sins were washed away, but I sometimes find it abominable when I reflect on my daily habits that could turn people away from God.
2.) God above all else. As mentioned above, I thought lent would be easy. In a way, I thought it was a great opportunity for me to rid of distraction towards God and school. However, I was myopic and never truly admitted that school is one of the bigger distractions to God. When I refused to watch/use YouTube for a class assignment, I realized I need to be able to overcome my personal desire for success and turn to God.
3.) Jesus loves us SO much. How could it be that Jesus went through all the pain just to bring us closer to God? How often do I remind myself of that? Not so much, and lent has helped me be more aware of that.
I have been so privileged to be able to study at such prestigious schools that have molded me to be the person I am today.
Through those years, I met great people. They all started as my acquaintances, but now I can call them my brothers and sisters, and mentors and students.
There were, of course, some professors I loved and respected, and some professors I respected but disliked, and I have questions for them:
1. Why do some professors think that all students will appreciate it if they cancel the class? Sure, the prevailing ideology is that many college students skip class, but let’s not forget that each class probably costs a few hundred dollars. I understand that some occasions are inevitable, but telling us that their dogs are afraid of thunder and that no one was home to take care of them? Okay, that makes me sound very inhumane, but you get the idea.
2. I understand that some professors are at their university for their research, but if they are ignorant toward their students, how could they consider themselves qualified? To them, their research may be more important, but to students, their education is more important than the professors’ research. I am a Mac user, and just because my professor doesn’t use any Mac product, he refused to help me out telling me that he doesn’t like Mac users. He just walked away after telling me that. Yeah, that may be my personal problem, but when more than half of the class doesn’t show up for his lecture, that says something about the professor as well.
Last semester, I struggled mightily with my school work, which made me homesick all the time. I just wanted to spend time with my family everyday… This semester, however, could possibly be my best academic semester in college, which is very encouraging. 1 downside of this is that I feel the need to do work all the time that I think about my family a lot less than usual. This thinking has been bothering me lately, because I worry that when I get a job years from now, I will put my work before my family. I can promise that that will not happen, but that’s been my thought. I just need to constantly remind myself of all the loves my parents pour out to me, which is helping me to do my best in any aspect of my life.
If you could go travel time to when you were younger, what advice would you give yourself?
Hindsight is 20/20, so it is definitely more convincing to listen to your “future” self to be most efficient or happy with life.
When my friend asked me the question, I gave him a mundane response. An answer I anticipate many would say: “Read more, don’t find easier ways, but learn through challenges, and just have more fun”.
I honestly do regret a lot for not reading when I was younger, and what upsets me more is that my parents always told me to read, but I just didn’t want to.
I know this sounds obvious, but it just never came to my realization that the things my parents’ told me to do when I was younger, are exactly the same advices I would give my younger self. My parents were my “future” beings who knew what I would regret later in life. Sadly, I have come to an age when my parents do not really tell me what I need/should do, because they trust that I will make the best decision for myself.
Seriously… my parents used to tell me that it is a lot harder to study when you get old, because materials don’t stick around your memory too long. Back then, I thought they were just saying that because they wanted to scare me so I could study then, but I feel like I am slowly reaching that point.
My point is that your parents will never tell you something that will harm or deter you. You just have to understand that their life experiences are the same as the ones you will experience, except they have experienced them ahead of time to tell you the best way to maneuver about it.
Can you believe we are already quarter way through the year?
How are you doing with your New Years’ resolutions? It’s not too late to start working on them if you think it’s too late. Don’t wait until next year to add onto the list of resolutions.
“Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday”
– Don Marquis
But more importantly, how are you doing with God?
It’s never too late to seek out for Him.
I wanted to try doing a prayer request box with my readers.
All you have to do is shoot me an e-mail with any prayer request you have!
I know this seems indiscriminate, but in a way, we vicariously act against God daily, so I wanted to use this opportunity to remind myself of His purpose for me.
No, not the movie Gone With The Wind.
** NO spoiler
Hayao Miyazaki, one of the most revered movie directors/writers, has announced his retirement after his last piece, TheWind Rises. I have been a huge fan of his after watching Spirited Away, My Neighbor Totoro, Howl’s Moving Castle, Princess Mononoke, and many more, and I have always wanted to watch his film in a theater. I was studying at the library, and my friend asked me to watch his LAST film, The Wind Rises. I honestly had no idea that he would make his retirement after the film, so I went to watch it at a movie theater. And the movie did not disappoint.
Unlike some of his previous movies, The Wind Rises seemed to have profound morals that could be interpreted in many ways. That’s what I really liked about the movie. In a way, the movie set the same tone as Toy Story 3 did. Toy Story 3 came out when I graduated high school, so it meant a lot to me. The movie helped me realize that I can’t defy age. I remember my friends telling me that they cried when they watched Toy Story 3… because they, too, had to let go of their past to move on to college.
In a similar manner, The Wind Rises helped me understand the meaning of working towards my dream. I hate spoilers and I hate spoiling for others, so I won’t go into details with the movie, but I just want to say that the movie was very inspirational. I will definitely miss his works, and I highly recommend people to watch the film, and check out his other films.
Have you ever heard, “It’s a blessing in disguise”?
Well, sometimes that blessing can be “too good to be true”.
I am certain there are readers who have not read my previous posts, but I will briefly recapitulate my story:
I was born a Christian, and that has been one of the greatest blessings but an impediment in my development. Although I am bilingual, it is easier for me to stay focused and truly understand when I listen to sermons in English… but because I have been attending services with my parents in a Korean church, I found myself daydreaming during sermons. Naturally, when I came to college, I joined a fellowship to praise God. After a year of getting closer to God, I had to take a year off for personal reason. I questioned God. I felt that He was pushing me away when I have begun to get to know Him better. During a year of absence from school, God told me that He just wanted to spend 1 on 1 time with me. He wanted to teach me that I do not need to depend on others to be closer to Him, but on Him alone.
However, when I came back to school, I pushed God away. I did my worst academically and spiritually. I just couldn’t overcome academic challenges, so I kept pushing God down my priorities so that I could focus on school. That obviously did not go well. Fortunately for me, I found Jesus in my life again. This semester, I joined a ministry that could help me set my eyes upon God. I was proud and felt loved by His sons and daughters. My joining the ministry seemed like a sign that God has not let go of me… until people have expressed their concerns for me (I do not want to go too much in detail about the ministry for its privacy). I sought out God’s help and He answered. I was able to speak to different pastors and leaders of fellowships to set my eyes on TRUTH.
Just when I thought God has placed me in a right place to grow, He placed me in a place where I can seek out the truth. I think He wanted to weed out the worst while I was in the slump so that I do not fall into another slump after climbing back out of the hole. Because of those experiences and struggles God has given me, I am so willing to seek out for Him. I love my Abba and trust that He will continue to guide me.
As always, I do not know how to finish my post, but I would love to share my experiences with readers who are truly interested, so please feel free to ask me via e-mail. Also, what are you giving up for lent?
1. It’s okay to skip classes sometimes. I never skipped a class, and that trend has continued until my college years. I just did not think it was the right thing to do, but I’m sure it’s too late for me to start skipping now.
2. GPA does not define you. Seriously, there was no point of stressing over GPA. I’m sure it taught me to be more responsible, but I think that was the root of “Get my work done and learn later” mentality, which has been biting my posterior in college.
3. Community Service isn’t just for your resume. I did serve, because I wanted to, but I’ve always had that “Oh yes, I can put this on my resume” in the back of my mind. That slight mentality could potentially bear wrong intention that could make me lose my focus.
Oftentimes, I forget that mothers do know best.
I think about my family a lot, because I love them and I know they love me; I haven’t missed a day of calling them since I came to college. I miss them dearly, but I miss them a lot more than usual today.
It’s funny how the first person who comes to my mind when I’m sick is my mom. I haven’t been feeling too well past few days, so I went to see my doctor. He suggested that I should test for strap throat and mono… but both came out to be negative. He told me that I just needed more rest, but I feel like the symptoms are getting worse. Times like this I cannot help but to think about my mom. Before I became a college student, I never had to worry about being sick, because I knew my mom would make me feel better.
I don’t know how she does it, but she just seems to know how to make me feel better. I wish I were home now so I can rejuvenate before my exam week!